Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Poems Gathered in High Desert Wandering




photo L. Escalanti

Red Sand Rainbow:  Private Prayers

I am finished. regarding the inquiry
about power and control— 
in the end,
there is only vulnerability.

fragile. the suffering of living.

soften into evenness.
let go into a net of existence,
blend into red rock canyon—
            time so old it slips
my grasping,
buffered briefly
from seduction and the need
to be seen (unique).

If there are new words
to describe the sunrise—
I don’t have them.
I give that requirement over
to the building heat of the day.

sun gains height in summer sky
and I let my karma burn
along that fire path.
the embers of that incineration
will be stars tonight.
            their alignment reminds me
            of my relationship
            to pause

and endlessness

-Renee Podunovich, 2018
Grand Staircase-Escalante National Monument
Boulder, UT
photo by rattenpatten



Wednesday, July 25, 2018

Dreaming Awake: The Gift of Allowing Each Moment

Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes. - Carl Jung
Great Salt Lake photo by Renee Podunovich

dawn

light winding
a way back to center
my body
a drum hide that vibrates in the numen.
            I shine
a small candle in the quiet dark of mo(u)rning

with each flicker of flame
I know—
            All is Connected
            & I am intact

each moment
                        each moment
                        has its own time and way,
these elements arise and take shape,
an endless intelligence
that I bow down to.

                        I bow to this that is given me
                        each moment:
                        the ease and clarity
so brief,
the tortures and sorrows
that steel me for equanimity,
dream me awake.

I bow to you, my teachers—
seen and unseen,
benevolent and menacing

                        just as this bud becomes a flower
                        (then seeds and husk)
                        I trust this unfolding and allow.

-Renee Podunovich, 2018